Jan 17, 2009

Making more choices

"The environment you fashion out of your thoughts,
your beliefs, your ideals, your philosophy is
the only climate you will ever live in."
Dr. Stephen Covey

I am still in California and impatiently waiting for the day I fly back. Being here has been a mix of all kinds of emotion. I am so used to the convenience that living in America offers, but I miss the lifestyle, the people, the countryside in Italy so one minute I'll be absorbing what is California and then the next I'll long for Italy.

When A came to visit, I again experienced my favorite places in fresh new way as I was sharing them with someone I love. It seemed my attachment for this state only grew stronger as I saw that he too loved it.

I have been making plans to move my things to Italy, not exactly an easy or cheap thing to do and I am surely going to leave a number of items back. The hard part is deciding which special things get to go and which ones will be left. I feel torn in many ways, not just in the love of these two countries, but in the separation of the things I value and treasure.

I struggle with the thought that things are things and more often than not, replaceable. It's the memories associated with them that I can not seem to leave behind and I want to surround myself with these items that awaken sleeping recollections or that represent me in some way.

Then I ran across the quotation above. It brings to mind that all the external things will never give me the peace of mind or serenity I look for in life. That will always have to come from within, no matter which country I live in, no matter what things I have near me, no matter who I am with. Once I know what I believe in, who I am, what is important in life, the rest should begin falling into place.


Jan 3, 2009

What is fulfillment to you?

There are people in this world who through the way they live, manage to inspire others. By the way they think, the choices they make, the things they do, the words they choose, they seem to live a life burning with a greater intensity, a brighter light.

What am I trying to say? I think it is that I had a glimpse of another way of living that is fulfilling in itself. I mean, I have pursued a full and enjoyable life by doing the things I love and I am fulfilled. I think many of us follow the same pattern, looking to make dreams come true and working toward these goals and it brings us the joy or contentment that we are looking for.

Others find the enjoyment, the fulfillment, the satisfaction in life not in the pursuit of things, but in themselves. Their energies are concentrated in the way they conduct themselves and live their lives, the way they believe and their convictions. They have a natural strength and a peace that is more valuable than any satisfaction that is derived from a personal pleasure.

Lives are certainly brightened by being around those who enjoy life immensely. Lives are illuminated when we are around those who are so in tune with themselves, they LIVE.

It isn't impossible to have a combination of the two, but if there was to be one, I believe the value of peace is far higher than that of pleasure.